How our lives can change in a year, a month, a day, an hour. During this time last year my fate was enveloped in a dark cloud, consisting of the word ‘kanser.’ Everything was completely unclear, especially in the first week as we waited for answers through test results, doctor’s appointments, the nurse’s phone calls. We would go to sleep thinking of the unknown, yet only to wake up and pick up those same thoughts right were we left off. It’s crazy how much power we give our minds to wonder off…to bright futures…and to total dark places.
But isn’t all of life unknown? Does any one of us know our number of days? No. Yet we live as if tomorrow will always be there. Have you ever been around someone who knew their life was coming to an end? They live as we were meant to live. Most importantly, they love as we were meant to love. That’s living…that’s purpose! And not that I want that kanser scare back, but I want to remember the deep reflection and no-limits love I felt for those God has put in my life. How quickly I felt urgency to really live in relationship…to seek forgiveness for taking my marriage for granted, or not spending precious moments with my kids, or calling good friends that I had let slip away.
Unfortunately, my to-do list never shrinks and the mundane struggles of life will always be there…but will my loved-ones? Do they know how I deeply I love them just as they are? How I treasure them? Do they know my intense love for Jesus? And my desire for them to experience that same love?
Oh time! How I have prayed for you to stand still, but it is truly me that needs to learn to work with you. My Time…God’s tool!
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
May I treasure the time You have given me. May I not waste one day, one hour, one minute living apart from You and Your ways. Help me, my Lord to focus on eternal matters before earthly. I pray that my love for You would overflow to those You have put before me! I love You!